Crying at the fair

I realize that I am new and all but I have to share this with you guys because I know you will fully understand. Last night my family and I, including some cousins and in-laws, all went to the Cullman County Fair. My husband, who is about a 34" waist had no problems riding anything with his cousins. I knew, and had told him before we left, that I wouldn't fit on anything. Well, he really wanted me to ride something with him and I love the Ferris Wheel, but he is afraid of heights. So, he says please ride the Scrambler. While in line, it looks like there won't be a problem because it appears quite roomy enough. So, I go ahead and step up to the ride and get in. The operator tries to close the bar and it barely makes itâ¦so I think. Well, my husband was on the side where it was supposed to lock and so I couldn't tell how far it had to go but the both of them said it was close, so I said just shove it in since it really wasn't too uncomfortable and I REALLY didn't want
to let my husband down. Well, the guy REALLY shoves the bar in and it locks and I have this crushing pain and rolls of fat are hanging out through the bar, over the top of the bar and of course lets not forget under the bar of death that I feel is choking me. I say very quickly, please undo it, I can't ride it. And then I proceed to get out of the ride and walk to the exit in front of the people waiting there in line who have been watching the whole thing. I am, of course, beet red and wanting to crawl under one of the booths behind me. My sister-in-law, whose stomach is larger than mine, watched the whole thing from behind me, because she intended to try to ride it also and I heard her tell her husband that if I didn't fit, she wouldn't either. She then told her husband to ride with my husband and he did so. Therefore, I am forced to stand there and watch them ride it while standing in front of all the people who just witnessed my prior embarassing moment. I tried so hard
not to let anyone see the tears in my eyes. I had to turn away and act like I was looking up at another ride. Then my sister-in-law told me about one time she had to get out of a bumper car because the seat belt wouldn't buckle. I then told her about how I've been researching the surgery and how I read my insurance policy and it covers it. She said she would do it too. This was the first person in my extended family I have told and I asked her to keep it to herself until I decided to tell them. Were any of you not wanting to tell people also? Why am I like that? Right now, only my husband and Mom know. Well, here is the rest of the story, as Paul Harvey would say⦠My husband KNEW I was not OK. After he got off, he just kept saying I'm sorry over and over. He then said he would ride with me on the Ferris Wheel. So we stood in line for about 20 minutes until we got almost to the front of the line, then I got too nervous that the bar would again not fit and I didn't want to
go through that again so I told my husband that, and we got out of line. He even offered to lie to everyone and said we could say that HE chickened out, but I said no. No one really said anything when we said we changed our minds. I guess they probably all figured it out. Anyway, I am more than determined now to have surgery so that by the time my 3 kids are teens, we can all ride anything together (even if I lose my lunch), instead of me standing there watching everyone else have fun! One good thing, I didn't eat anything bad for me, I passed on all the caramel apples, funnel cakes, nachos, etc, Thanks for letting me get this out, I know you guys will feel my pain.
Kimberly

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4 Responses to Crying at the fair

  1. luciana_80 on 2008-09-25 14:53:46.172763

    Elizabeth, please share with me how you have lost so much weight, I am a basket case, I had my surgery May 14, 2003 and have lost 140 pounds, but I am scared to death, it seems like I am hungary all the time and It seems like I can eat an awful lot of food. I am so discouraged I am really freaking out about this and it has me so worried. I will be glad to hear from you thanks a lot Tee at mercy35235@..., you have done great.
    erjkelly <elizabeth.kelly@...

    Honey, I know your pain. I was there 2 years ago. I went to Toco
    Bell and could not fit in the booth....That is when I made up my mind
    to have the surgery. I had it with Dr. Schmitt on March 20, 2003.
    It was the best thing that I have ever done for myself. As of today
    I have lost 193 pounds!! I started out at 342 and I am now at 149
    pounds. It is scary....but it was well worth it....Good luck to you..

  2. jasmine200 on 2008-09-25 13:40:19.860514

    what Dr. did you use?

  3. evelyn_1800 on 2008-09-26 06:56:21.653434

    Well, I had my skin fixed and the Dr. removed 14 pounds from my
    stomach. I have not gained any of that weight back. I had it done
    on July 19 and 20th. I had my arms, breast reduction, and a tummy
    tuck. I need to go back and have my legs done. I will do that in a
    couple of years. It will take me that long to pay for what I had
    done this year. HAHA!!!! It has been well worth the money!!! I am
    loving it....
    I still don't eat a lot. I do eat more than I use to. I don't drink
    soda's at all. I can eat a few sweets.
    You have done great!!!! Keep up the good work....

  4. bridgett30 on 2008-09-26 16:56:08.017449

    Was your surgery painful? I want to do the samething, but I have had
    2 surgery's in the past 2 years, I want to wait a couple of years.
    I'm only 3 1/2 months post op and have lost 68.5 lbs. I would have
    the surgery over again, because it is well woth it.
    Chandra

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